Wednesday, May 09, 2007

Trapped on The Rollercoaster

That's where I'm at.

I'm trapped on a wild roller coaster and no one can turn it off or slow it down.
The only respite is in the seconds when it climbs slowly upward preparing for another descent...but it's not really a respite because I know the drop is coming, I see the signs and have no power to stop it.

There's no break from the fear and stress.

Even the people who like roller coasters are scared and tired and screaming to be let off...for those of us who don't like roller coasters the experience is too much to deal with.
The constant twisting and turning, climbing and dipping affects my whole body and I feel sick and lose perspective.

I can't tell up from down any more. I'm forgetting what life is like on the ground.

Someone pull the leaver.

Please...make it stop!!!

Saturday, January 06, 2007

On My Soapbox

No more than we can bear...YEAH RIGHT!

So help me, if one more person tells me that God will not give me more than I can bear, I will spew...and not just spew, but will make sure it is particuarly NASTY!!!!

Let's review this, shall we?...

The Word (of God) says this...

1st Corinthians
13No temptation has seized you except what is common to man. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it.

What is this talking about? Idols, sin...our walk with God. It is NOT reffering to (are you listening) PROBLEMS!!!!!!!

Let me be dirrect here...I don't even believe that a lot of problems come from God...who do they come from. Well, let's see...who is the thief, who seeks to STEAL, KILL and DESTROY?...hmmmmmmmm?....Who is it?????????...could it be....


Bingo, Sparky!

Satan gives me more than I can bear. He gives a lot of people more than they can bear. If we could bear it we wouldn't be leaning on the everlasting arms, would we?

Now...who is it that gives us the strength we need so that we might do ALL things...hmmmm?....yes THIS will be on the test.

JESUS!!!!!!!...You know, the king of Kings, the Lord of Lords, the redeemer, the Word...etc, etc...

Oh, by the way...he is the one who comes to give LIFE and to give the everlasting.

But wait, you say...doesn't he say that we will suffer trials and tribs? he will work all things for my good (only if ya love him)...and doesn't he say He will never leave us...yeah yeah does, and he meant it. But he didn't cause it so don't tell me again that he won't give me more than I can bear ...

Because I have been on the "More than I can bear" cycle for about three years now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Roll over Sparky.

On My Soapbox


Yes, we don't want our children labeled. We can't have them cursed and under a tag that will hang around their neck for the rest of their life!!!!!

No, I guess what we *want* to do then is bury our heads in the sand and just treat the symptoms...right?

Isn't that what we get so mad at physicians about? We (parents) don't want to take our children into the Dr just to have them feed antibiotics over and over in an effort to corral whatever the problem might be.

We want a Dr to examine our see the hear the find the tell us what we can do to fix it.

We don't want our little cherubs to suffer with strep throat while a Dr treats them for cold and flu.

Yet we will refuse to allow a psychiatrist to examine, and diagnose because we don't want to label our children.

Fine...go ahead...let me know how treating a Bipolar child as if he has clinical depression, works for you. You can call me, or better yet, don't, the first time the child has a psychotic reaction to an antidepressant. How about we treat them all for ADHD, that ought to be fun with a child who has Reactive Attachment Disorder! That little remorseless control freak will fry you up and eat you with catchup, while laughing out loud at your reward charts and check lists.

As for me and my family we want a diagnoses...and a correct one and we want it NOW!!!!

I have been told that most therapist, psychologists and psychiatrists will just slap the diagnoses de'jour on whoever walks in their door, but I have yet to find these proffessionals. The people I take my children to are a little too far right of careful for me. They are not wielding a giant ADHD or Bipolar stamp ready to brand a wee forehead, no they want to wait (FOR WHAT?). They don't want to label a child with an incorrect diagnoses...WHY NOT!!!!! The professionals seem to have and inability to commit. They don't diagnose unless under duress.

ACK!!!! Label my child already. They have a problem!! It is not a secret!!! They need help...and they need the right kind so quit wasting my time by being careful. While you are trying to take care of the child that God gave ME!! My child is growing up and losing more and more ground because we can't pursue correct treatment.

Why can't we pursue correct treatment? Because YOU great and mighty psychiatrist hold the power to give my child hope and a future or not (God complex?...GET OVER IT!!!)

It is my understanding that a boat that's in the water already, even if pointed in the wrong direction, is easier to turn than a boat in DRYDOCK!!!

You don't treat Near sightensess with Insulin, you can't cure cancer with a cast...DO NOT tell me that a stimulant will help my PTSD child handle emotional triggers won't. But do step out and diagnose. Quit worrying about a law suit while my child's life is scarred, destroyed and tossed aside.

Who went to medical school here...get a clue, get a DSM-IV!! and give me a script!!!